Saturday, May 15, 2004
jus woke up... gg out wif mer later...
thru-out my life... i think wilmer, vince and gang are the ones tt have nv failed me as frens... i know they are the ones that will stand by me, whether i am in the right or wrong... whether i have done something good or bad... i realli thank God for these frens.
once and again i tried to find frens with similar qualities after i left sec sch. church, poly, etc... i never found even one quite the same as them. the way others look at me; the way mer and vince look at me... its never the same...
as frens, mer and vince nv judged me harshly... they only tell me straight how they feel abt the things i do... but in the end, they still tell me, no matter what i do, they would love me as a fren (well, they nv say "eh kai we love u" la... so gay).
regrettably, fei and victor seems so far now... esp vic... after we went our separate ways, vic nv made an attempt to contact us or even plan outings with us.... THAT CHEE HONG! haha~
as for fei... ever since he got esther... he no longer went out with us as often... we also gradually spoke lesser and lesser of him... i hope one day, after mer and vince find their own soulmates, they will not forget me as a fren...
sometimes... i think... can i lose everything in this world? i ask myself: am i willing to gif up everything in life for God? thinking abt this... i relli think the answer is a no... its wrong as a disciple since we are suppose to put down our burdens and follow him... but i jus feel this way. my family means alot to me... and mer and vince means as much to me. they are part of my family to me... other things in life... i think i can forfeit. i know i can forfeit everything else.
everything.
kai-mmunist teachings 5:32 PM
