Saturday, June 05, 2004
today was a tiring day. but it was worth it. got to know many ppl more today. talked one to one with peeps during and after work.
i used to think alex was a spoilt brat or sumting like tt. rebellious and stuff. but today went to breaks 3 times with him. talked alot and got to know wat i din know before. i think while he may still be a boy in the heart, he is also quite knowing of wat is going on around him. and that he is pretty funny to hang arnd with.
toked to brian after work too. tt was because of my dumb idea to slack with a cup of noodles from cheers(rivervale mall). lol. he was pretty much like me in the past. those gangster shit. come to think of it its pretty silly to be like tat. like being the big boss and think u have nine lives to just face 10s of people with weapons on their hands and think u can overpower them. doh.
thinking back i think i really had a bad temper. rash in doing things and stuff. i believe i am not "completely" cured of that yet. but i dare say i changed alot. i have been rash in many things and i think i do not wanna do that again. i spoilt millions of stuff in my life cos of my rashness, and i dun wanna spoil anymore of it. it made me lose something i really put so much trust and hope into, and now i am getting nothing out of it again.
all because of being rash.
i cant believe tat i used to put my hope in a girl whom i thought i would give up everything for, only to know that she would give nothing in return. its not selfish, because love cant work one way. if i am the only one giving, wats the point of being in a relationship? i will never make the same mistake again.
never.
anyways, i will be having a private blog soon. it will have my darkest secrets and i wun be linking it to anyone. so if u are my good friend, and i am willing to trust my life in ur hands, u will get the url. will keep u updated.
kai-mmunist teachings 4:16 AM
