Tuesday, June 01, 2004
went for lotr exhibition today. onli lasted 1.5 hrs inside... (marc stayed for 7 long hrs if my memory din fail me. BAH.) so sian... go there... see see... go work...
ppl tell me i needa be tactful, but i am a straightforward person. while tat is not always a good trait, but its not bad either. its not always good to be tactful all the time, and i am just not the person to be that hardworking to "beat around the bush". i say wat is on my mind and hw u wanna react to it? tat is ur business. tts my principle. people tt have known me since my secondary school times should understand that i am "merciful" enough to be straightforward. my temper used to be worse.
much much worse.
and people i noe in poly never gets to understand that... it caused one of my relationships to fail. the relationship i put so much hope and trust on. nobody can ever understand how much i changed since 4 years ago. only those that have seen it can believe it. and those that i told them abt? they can only listen but NEVER understand.
sometimes i ask if people really find it that hard to understand me? izzit me that's hard to understand or issit u that is not sensitive enough to understand me?
mer and gang noe me well though, irregardless of how long we din meet, they still noe me inside out. yes, u can say:"they knew u for a longer period of time." but one thing is, they accepted me for whu i am since the day they knew me.
is it that hard for others to do the same?
mer, vince and gang have always been the ones that i would die rather than to give them up. are frens the only ones? can there never be a girl to understand me deeply? is there no one else?
kai-mmunist teachings 2:08 AM
