Tuesday, July 13, 2004
feelings get abit messed up nowadays. its like i dun even understand myself. crap.
lotsa things happen, but none are good. ok. lets be fair. there are good things, but not good enuf when compared to the bad things.
it had dragged on for slightly more than half a year now, and at last it is decided tt things should be laid down to rest. its not tt i wanted it to end this way. but i had no choice. things are nv one-sided. even God cant make anyone love Him, wats more a mortal like me. if things happen, they happen.
i forgot how to cry. i forgot how to be sad. but now i noe how to regret. its the worst thing tt can happen to anyone. and if i had the power to turn back time, i would have cherished everything. cos its until u lose something that u noe how to cherish.
i am not good enuf.
kai-mmunist teachings 9:33 PM
