Sunday, September 03, 2006
Recently, while waiting for army, I have been thinking alot.
It's like when you have too much time, you have nothing to do but think. Then, I contemplated my future.
I used to have so many ambitions, and passion to do so many things: I always wanted to serve people, and to one day own my own restaurant/lodge. I always had dreams of my future; of how I want my life to be before I have 'accomplished' my goal.
However, recently as I think more and more about my ambitions, I concluded that I will not be happy even after owning my own place and serving people. Gradually, I slowly started to question all that I have done: the connections I established with the people in the industry, the diploma that I put so much effort in (okay la, NOT really that much but commendable okay!), and the experiences and skills I tried so hard to obtain by working and studying at the same time.
Two days ago, we were talking about priorities in life in cell. We discussed goals in life, and what is important to achieve our purposes in life.
Then suddenly, God reminded me of when I first became a Christian. I used to be so fired up for God and His ministry. That time, I strived and hoped to work full-time for God one day. He put this burden in me to serve Him wholeheartedly in my later years, as in my youthful days.
As time went by, situation and myself seemed to have slowly neglected that calling and went ahead to develop my own ambitions that I think is best for myself.
And it was that day at cell, that God reminded me of that God-centred ambition I used to have, and what I am meant to do. Then he further backed that calling again, as I attended AWE Worship at Toa Payoh Methodist the recent Saturday, Pastor Chua's testimony once again called out to me. Pastor Chua discussed his younger days serving in church , and how God as a result called him to full-time ministry. Eerily similar to what I had faced.
In a flash, God was calling out to me again. Or to be honest, my ears finally willed itself to open up to God once again.
I was profusely thanking God when I shared my experience with Vincent and he admitted to me that in the recent spate of events, he also got the same message as I have: to study Theology in TTC.
I hope as time passes by, the path before me that is quite scary and uncertain, God give me faith and support as we walk this path. And I pray that the day will come when we will achieve His purpose for our lives. It's quite frightening to think about it, but at least now God has put this peace in my heart. It feels good to know your purpose.
BUT THEN, QUITE FUNNY. IMAGINE YOU HAVE A TEACHER IN CHURCH LIKE ME HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHA!
kai-mmunist teachings 11:08 PM
